3rd post for today. Its the 23rd, if you've realised. One of my 3 favourite numbers. (: And its... 6 months to YM's birthday, and 6 months minus 20 days to mine. I don't even know why i'm saying all these.

I can't do QT.I can't play my piano well. The concentration just isn't there. If i could, i'd most probably blame it on the flu, but no. My nose has gotten better. Its just the lots of rubbish rumaging through my head. No, not rubbish. Treausres. yeah, thats what and why. And all these thoughts. Dang, they hurt. Its the irony though, that it was i who made it happen. I guess it was best, not for me.

There are like, dozens of songs that are playing in my head ( no, not adam lambert, Mel.). And its mostly one or two of the lines that i'm reflecting on. But everytime that second mind of mine plays it ( i learnt it from th book called 'The Valkyries'), It can't get out. Maybe i'm not a master of it yet. Marilyn Tan says SMILE (:

Aye, I don't know how long i would be able to take this. It feel.. weird, differnt, awkward, not having my phone vibrating every 5 minutes or so. When i was re-writing all the old smses in my diary, every single one seemed so dang important. Now i roughly get what it means to take things forgranted. Not that i have never experienced it before, just that this impact's just a little more affective.Everything just suddenly seems different.

Thanks for the call, Mel. (: I've gotta learn to take things a step at a time. Find my way back if i lose track. Pray if need help. And if need be, i've gotta change my tracks . but at the end of the day, i'm gonna be where i wanna be. Lord, help me. Sometimes, you'd never have seen it coming. And you think you should have started running a long time ago. But my God is mighty to save, and i've gotta walk by faith.