Oh How I Love You People (and the tree:D)

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I think i managed to do quite a bit today. I have like, 4 more science worksheets/papers to accomplish before i please Mr Loh *rubs tummy*. Shall mug Math tmr if im not going out with Juniors. But we'll be going to study if we go out anyway. Love them so much. And you too, Harita. (: Oh, then there's DLS school musical. I initially thought Maine got me tix but nah. So i'll be going there to try my luck to see if they'll be selling the tix there. Just to see Haritaaaa. <3

Xavier (Jesse Tan) and I were talking about people and stuff, and yeah. It really hurts me to see her go down this road ( or was it route? Anti-climax, sorry). Then we looked at her archives and her current posts, and we saw how different it was. How now its just emo-full of rants and vulgarties and how it used to be so innocent (and about how i farted in her face). HAHA. But i still love her very much. I've really gotta have the courage to talk to her about this one day.

I don't really like the way people change so much, esp when its for the worse. And i really hate it when parents with kids don't spare a thought for their kids and their future and go around doing whatever they want. And when their kids screw up, they just rant it on their kids and scold them for no rhyme or reason. Thats when the sticks and alcohol comes in with the abuse. Then the kids think that no one loves them, and next thing you know, they're in the coffin. Life without Jesus is like a donut, cause there's a hole in the centre of your heart. (:

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Mummy used to tell me about how everyone has this emptiness in them, which can only be filled by the love of Jesus christ. These people without Jesus go around searching for that sense of filling, only to get emptied once again. They seek refuge in relationships and lustfulness, but they're still empty. I've been feeling empty recently, but i don't understand why i don't have this urgency to go back to God.

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I really have to start doing my QT again. I think the computer sucks cause its absorbing so much of my time. And FYI, i can see the difference in me being so far from God. Its like he's calling me, i'm calling him, but im not willing to move. And there's this thing thats pulling me away. And i go further and further and further. I try to tell myself about how much God's crying for me, but i don't feel a thing. Why? This sucks.

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Okay, i have no idea how this post managed to get from something so happy to something as sad as this. But geeeeez. It makes my heart ache just thinking about how much i've drifted from God.

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And sometimes i really feel like a hypocrite. Yes, i do go for bible study and go to church like, at LEAST 2 times a week ( there's chapel, Bible study, Youth, sunday service), and people think im like, the bible geek who uses verses to relate to real life things, who wins when people debate with me on religion, blablabla, and it seems as if Im like, SUPER DUPER close to God, when im not, and im actually like, SO far away from God, and i don't even know what God's trying to say. I need to get back up. I really do.

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No Marilyn, im not emo :D

P.s. I ate A LOT. Im 67 kilos now. Not kidding. :D